Each Day

I have been feeling a bit better each day. I am still having some spikes to 200s, and taking about 2x my usual dose of insulin but feeling better. It helps that the sun is out and temps are warming up to above 30, which means I can at least get our for a good walk each day.

Too much time at home leaves me with too much time to think worry. Top of the list this weekend are:

1. An astonishment at how hard it is with come off of SSRIs and how none of my doctors ever connected my chronic fatigue and emotional numbness to my use.  How no one, ever in 15+ years suggested I come off of it. How can so many doctors be so ignorant of the detrimental long term effects. I am going to go as slow as I need to but I have to get off this medication.
2. Being alone as I age, being lonely, needing help and what if I don't have it. I am trying not to dwell on a future since where anything (even amazing good things!) are possible.

Ok enough worry for now, time to get moving for the day.